Sab chaley gai.
Mai reh gai akeli.
I even had the free pass...Even Junaid went to the same screening....I would totally get permission to stay out late.
Pata nai kia masla hai.
Stupid weak me.
Har wakt bemaar.
Abi bhi sick.
Gay pana fazul ka.
Its not fair.
Sab chaley gai.
Im the only loser in the city at home with mom tonight.

T_T

Koi baat nai.
Ami ordered pizza for me.
Sab theek hojae ga.

Im glad the week is over.
It was a bad one.

Gay Alert. [Not a funny post]

Sometimes I wish I could express myself in images instead of words. Words make me sound gay and desperate.

If I were able to express myself in images in my head, you would realize that desperation is a very small part of it. The real thing is so much more...I dont want to say deep but...what do you call something which is stimulating and has depth and is so intense and sad and exciting at the same time...?

Im always struggling with words. And then it turns into something funny. And then I end up talking about something like donuts.

Im listening to this thing over and over again. And its not just desperation.

See I sound gay with words.

I want to draw something.

I want to paint.

Im tired of research.

Im on the verge of exploding.

But I read that most of us never really do explode. We usually chicken out at the last moment.

I feel so confined.

I dont even have a pencil to draw.

Ever find yourself focusing on something really pointless and minute when you should be looking at the bigger picture?

Isnt it disturbing?

I made this sketch a couple of years back.

Dead bodies hanging from a tree.

I had a dream about it last night.

I could see the shadow of nude bodies hanging from the tree outside my window. It wasnt clear cuz the window was closed.

I was going to be the next body and the fear I felt was real.

I need images here.

Confused again. But calm.

I miss...life.

Onm nom nom

Kuch awesome likhne ka dil chara hai.
But...pata nai.
umm...
world cup is boring this year.
sss....nah I cant think of anything funny about fifa....sides its gay song.
But its not funny. Its just sad. Guys at work say they dont want to see Shakira shake her ass and they're straight people.
ermm...
kia likhoon yaaaaar...
I dont like saying yaar since my Urdu teacher said it was a bad word back in 2004. But I say it. But I feel weird saying it like Im saying something...ya know...like some urdu graphic gaali. Nah..this topic aint workin either.
tch...
I saw Mr. Brooks yesterday. It was actually good.
Demi Moore is not flat.
Oh...okay...You know when you get those lines on your forehead when youre thinking?
They're now permanent on mine. I actually have to try to not look like Im thinking something deep. Its kinda depressing. And I have that look on my face right now.
Im old=[
Mr. Brooks was really good.
I love sneaky creepy people.
Stomp the yard is ugly.
Im not being a racist.
I dont have anything against Negroes.
I absolutely have no intentions to discriminate.
But...the movie was ugly.
Not a single good looking person.
And to make it worse...all the dancers kept twisting their face and showing their tongues twitching their noses like they were about to sneeze.
No disrespect.
I think Negroes are really awesome.
I mean...Denzel Washington, Halle Berry, Morgan Freeman....love them.
But...stomp the yard was...There were at least three scenes in the movie which made me wana puke.
It was like...alien sex in Avatar.
But uglier...with more details.
It was not pretty.

Waddaya know...we got a post=D

yaYy of the month.

Remember how I used to whine about how much I suck at work and how I cant write?
Yea...well...not anymore ^.^
I. Are. Awesome.
Yep.
Jumped from writing 54 last month to 117 this month.
BooYeah.
And I got a raise ^.^
*sigh*
me and my awesomeness.
Just...I amuse myself.

I declare an Annual Hypothetical Holiday on July 5 to be observed every year till the end of time.

Now I just really hope my other friends n all dont read it...cuz then the word will spread and then if I treat like one group of friends I'll have to treat other two groups as well. I have too many friends:\
Anyway....yaYy me:D

Bolo bolo...

They did 'bolo bolo' in coke studio=[
I so totally love that song=[
It was so nice of them to do it=[
<3

Bolo bolo tumne kia dekha?
Bolo bolo tumne KIA Dekha merey jeevan main?=[

History and Literature, as interesting as they are, can be a grain of salt in the wounded flesh when put together. Currently Im writing a research paper on the "Leading Italian Renaissance Humanists" and lets just say.....I would rather live those days again than do this shit. Okay...no.

Meri gaari dekhi ya mera bangla dekha ya mera sara bank balance [read bang balance] dekhaa?

I like the real one better though.

Na merey sapne dekhey na mera jazba dekha na mera toota hua dil dekhaa=[

I have no idea why I like this song:\

I cant remember the last time I prayed. Been more than a year I think. I dont feel like it. I dont want to. And I would really like to have a word with God:\

Please dont hate me=[

Mujhey pyaar tumse nahi hai PYAAR tumse nahi hai...

Okay..."pyaar" sounds cheap no matter what.
I hate the term.
Anyway.
Why did I live today?
Match.
Why am I going to continue living tomorrow?
.....
I better find a reason by the time I wake up or else Im gona be really depressed.

Main tumse dur chala jaunga paas nahi aungaa...

Oh...I had a dream again. Ya know the kind when you see someone cry and then you feel bad cuz when you wake the dream reminds you something bad you did to that particular person in the past? Yeah. That. Hate those.