disturbingness!!!

soo yeah its been a while since i had a wild graphic dream...soo i kinda enjoyed it.

Its wasnt a triditional *cought in the middle of a war* dream dis time...it was...diffrent.
I miss havin a war dream....its been a while...anyway..

So i was in this room.....with HUGE aquariums...like HUGE....in one was a big giant human eating turtle...in one were those sharks with the nose like knies...what are they called? whatever....and big lizards in one...and ryte in the middle was a big swimming pool....only it wasnt underground but on top with walls of glass.....and there was a BIG crocodile....i think it was a salk water croc. So i was walking thru it looking at the croc....i hear this wistle sorta thing i go to chek it out it was a geaser sort thing which controlled the temperature of the water in the aquariums...
it was broken....and the room started to get hot...i try to fix it but i break it instead and the water starts boiling in the pool...so i run out. as i as i run out theres a blast....and wen i goo in theres blood all around....parts of animals scatterd here n there....and the wistle was blowing like *teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........*

it was.......weird!
Oh my prac wasnt as bad as i suspected....not evn close:D

this is why im hot!

they call me HELL;
they call me seXEE;
sumthing sumthing
sumthing....
thats not my name....

here she comes again screaming n crying.....i thot id tell her not to go but i dint...i ws too lazy to.
to be honest i dint evn care..its happend jus to many times...and i hate the way i never get used to it...it always comes as a shock....if evn for a second. Im not good wit consoling ppl....infact im really REALLY bad...its almost like not hapenin....im smiling....noone can evn see my face. Pity is the love i have for her....ssss man im crueL!

You kno it aint easy, for these thoughts here to leave me....she tryna console her...she mus be thinkin im such a fuking bych....i mean im done tryna make he feel better...i knw she wont...ive tried...for a lil too long and im tired now. it'll pass.....its been passing for past15 yers.....it'll pass again.....
ima big big gurl...in a big big world...its not a big big thing if its all craapy...

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet....miss him...:(:(

missing him alot....STOP TALKING:@
everyones a bych....so wen dey act like bych why get surprized...they are prone to act like that..what the big deal? its always been like this.

up up and away (the post has nothing to do wit the title)

so heres the list of people who are online :

(away)
(away)
(busy)
(away)
(blocked)
encarta - instant answers (my best frnd always there to talk to)

grrrr...tonsils!!! i think its the salad i had ryte before goin to bed! i cant figure out the assignment...am i dumb?:( - hell No!

i hate indian shows....i dunno why ppl watch em...i cant stand the bullshit they try to pull!
wTf is a *chai-la*? anyway - it really annoys me wen ppl say *anywayss* instead of anyway...its ANYWAY...how many ways d u wana take at once? its jus ONE way and its can be ANY...ugh. Look at me concerned abt such important issues.

i HATE tonsils!

i think im getting a heart attack.

I wke up sick after my 5 hr long nap in the afternoon n my heart beat it slow since...:s
lol...
here on dis blog....i sound like everyone that i hate....whyner, loner, quitter (tho i secretly think quitting is FINE) and sick....and not very pretty...hahah
i cant get myself to initite a stupid command on the programming shit...i have no idea what im doin wrong. Ive noticed...since i talk so much here i dont talk to my frnds dat much nemore....i ignored kainats call yestrday..:$

people talk ALOT!! i got to college and girls are all.....blablablablllalalalalalal.....in their loud squeky voice....in van the kids wont stop talkin..."sister emily really likes me" whatever BYCH noone cares!! they jus keep on takling n talking...and wen im home my neighbrs (i frgot ow to spell neighbr again...) children.....dey play and they scream.....and laugh.....my head is bursting...all i wana do is slit their throats....THEY JUST WONT STOP TALKING!!
and if that aint enuff we got TEEVEE.....the noice is killing me!!! my head hurts and i feel nauscious...here i start wit the cmplainin again.....whats wrong with me? i never used to cmplain before.
i hate it wen i wake up tired!!:(

DIE memory card!!

my stupid cell wont get cnnected......Fuck YOU cellphone!! stupid memry card is corrupted:( I love my cellphone and weneva it betrays me i actually feel bad...:s
assness format bi nai hora!!
toads and pens!!!
i WONT connect....
AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH:@:@

jus took an hour long nap...helpd the heavy head a lil. My pracs on tuesday and i havent done shit yet...my paper sucked and now the prac will too....i jus hope i pass. Oh crap.....i had to call urooj to tell her abt the prac n shit.....i dont wana:$ im tired.....i jus wana sit in this chair and faadee aaawaaay.....mom got the hint and fixing me salad for diner instead of dal n kebab:D:D
i like her!!
away people on my id annoy the shit outa me....and the list keeps on increasing...i mean if u away...what the fuck are u doin signed in? if u dont wana talk appear the fuck offline....what the hell is away suposed to mean? yea yea sum bla bla xplanation...ima try cnnectin my cell again...
and if it doesnt ima trow it away!!

GOT connected:D aand my memry card wont appear...:s its corrupted....why wud u do that to me memry card? why get corrupted now dat i recently updated you with all those beautiful songs? now that i had so many memrble pic in side? why walk out on me now that im so fuking used to you? why do they always go away?:(:(
*TEARS*
*swimming in tears*
*feeling cold and lonely*

i can be such a dramaqueen....i HATE dramaqueens! bloody attention seeking byches who cant take shit n are always looking for sympathy!
im hungry!!!

pens and toads!:@!