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I made my mom the most adorable mommy's day card every. I felt 7 ryte after it.



I amuse myself....the contradiction...the pretense. Im learning to like it now.

Ive been completely out of touch with politics for the past week - I prefer it that way now.
It makes me feel helpless...more than usual. I hate being helpless....
"Helplessness is hopelessness.."
[somebody said it, cant remember the name.]

But I think I mentioned the whole *helplessness* thing before....I also hate repetition..
I dont like hypocrites [myself being an exception since rules are always different for everyone else].
Talking is so pointless. It almost never makes a difference. And I dont like criticizing which is ironic since I do that a lot - and I am so damn full of myself. So I was just wondering just because a person is aware of ones fault or a...what should I say..."bad quality" is it justified for that person to possess it? As in, I know Im a hypocrite so its suddenly alryte for me to be one?

Know what else I hate? When a person goes all bychy about someone like..."THAT person said bla bla but did bleh...at least I dint do THAT!!" and so Im a greater person.
Why argue about something you never did?
If you DINT do it - it dint make a difference - if it dint make a difference it doesnt exist - You cant argue about something that doesnt exist - Ehsaan nahi kia aap nai insniyat per ghalat kaam na ker kai....

SO yeah Mariam and I are now officially *good FRIENDS*...:p
*hugs*love*kisses*happiness*

"Some day you will look at your friend, and he will seem to you to be a little out of drawing, or you won't like his tone of colour, or something."

Thats one creepy statement by Mr. Wilde.

SEMEN is still annoying....but Im getting used to it.
Today, suddenly, I had this urge to pick out my veins from my wrist (all the visible blue ones) with a needle....:\
If I ever make a movie this scene is definitely going to be there.....the graphics are gonna be as good as real....but better...

The sketch...its still incomplete - oh the disappointment. Ive wasted too much time on it to just throw it away...but anyway...

"An artist should create beautiful things, but should put nothing of his own life into them."
- Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

and its almost impossible to do so...

wana know whats up? MY WEIGHT!!

I eat like a pig....seriously!!
yesterday I had a bowl FULL of porridge(with milk), then an hour later had my lunch..went for my class n had my lunch again at 5:30...then at 7 had a bowl FULL of chickpeas....and then had my dinner.....

I better start exercising I guess...I think the *miracle* of uncle Haider is wearing off.

I had this really colorful dream....(which was a surprise since I almost never have color dreams mostly its all gray or black...or sepia when my mind is all exited)...so yeah...it wasn't just a colorful dream it was High quality 3D colorful dream with the best graphics...the kind that would put Matrix people to shame - yeah THAT good.
The content of the dream was stupid - yes...but cuh-Mawn!!
It was like in a jungle (a lovely green color)....I was being chased by red Indians...(which is weird since I not really scared of red Indians) anyway, so yeah the whole chase game then I take refuge in a building (which is the stupid part cuz what the fuck is a nice clean modern building doing in the middle of a jungle ryte?)...so yeah bla bla and then in the end it was me with a bunch of other people on one side and the red Indians on the other....and then they all shoot us with an arrow....like one person threw around 5 arrows all at the same time....and then it was this slow-mo close up I saw of the arrows in the air (like in the chronicles of Narnia) and then *spoof* everyone was dead....Victory to the warriors!!
It was pretty awesome...low in content - yes...

My brother dropped mayo all over the keyboard :@:@
Did I mention how old he is??...Hes not that old...only 22 YEARS..yeah...
grr...

My mom saw the war in Swat the night before they attacked....she usually has these scary dreams about this kinda stuff...You know whats NOT scary?
A disease. Yeah. I dunno WHY people make movies on diseases!!! Stupid cliched shit. Yeah SHIT...as in crap....not even real crap more like baby poop....its not even qualified for shit. Still dont know what Im talking about? Im talking about Quaratine.....The lamest shit Ive seen this week. What was the director thinking? Oh im bored...heres an Idea we'll cast that girl from exorcism of Emily Rose and fool everyone by labeling the movie *scary* when it actually belongs to the genre of SHIT!!
I havent seen a decent movie in a while now. And confessions of a shopoholic is STUPID Sumera...Being the admirer you are of gay-ness since after the whole *twilight* miracle happened to you...I wasnt surprised at all that you liked it:p

Oh-OH..Did I nOt mention that I got 84% in my IT crap whatever shit? Well I did:D
*does the happy monkey dance*
*boO-YeaH*

*glides away in vain*

I sneezed my eye-lashes out today:(

So I just realized Im still stuck in my 16's...I feel like I used to back when I was 16...I still think like that....I look hotter - yes....But never mind that..Im assuming one day I'll mature.
So Afefah DID read the blog and now she thinks Im conspiring against her and some bullshit I dont get.....and thanx to her now Mariam (not the IT mariam the college Maraim - whom I love dearly:P) knows the address too...not that I mind:p
BOO you afu!!
I wasnt even serious about it....It was all a joke but obviously youre much too serious and actually dont wana talk so FINE by mE beeech!!!
But I'll prolly smAss her tomoro....since 3 din sai ziada musalmaan musalmaan shudnt fite n shit..:p Lucky you bych!!:p

Im sick.....I mean that in all the possible ways.

So my mom's cozin came the other nyte.....around 11:30....yeha talk about hospitality!!
she went all "array betaa, basan sai mu dhoya karo aapki skin achi ho gi...tumhari ami ki tou skin itni smooth hoti thi mai kia bataaon......"
...:
Acid sai na dho loon mu?
Peechey paray rehtey hain...!!!

And Im HURT Afu!!:@
and Im hugry...
Lite nai gai.....Im streassed....raat mai jae gi...when Im abt to fall asleep.
ugh....
Crapness!!
Im sick....and I jus cant get myself to complete the damn sketch....Its soo frustrating....If dont get it done by tomoro Ima tear it in to small pieces and feed it to Dua (my neighbours kid!)...And Im so damn serious about THAT!!

*blink*blink*dead*

I had quite a lot in mind but now Im blank...
ummm....
*whispers*but you're always blank Uzma tell us something new....SHhHh:@
Afefah hung up on me - Bitch!
:p
It wasnt my fault...
She asked me for work on THE PHONE.....I mean....of all the people...ME...SHe called mE to give her the discussion on the damn PHONE...Like thAt was gona happen....so I was being bychy (like I always am...which is completely alryte....cuz everyone expects me to be) asuaul...and I was laughin on her misfortune cuz we had to submit the work the next day...and gues what hapened then? SHE hung up!!
Like wtf?
so now Im not talking to her:p
and I know the bych is reading ...she one of my silent regular readers:p
bOO-haa-HA-HAH!!!
:D

*SEEMEN of the week*

We got our presentation material back yesterday (and our group got the highest like - wOw)..Anyway...
so she went all..

"You people copied it all from the net...the stuff is good but most of you dont know what you have written. I havent read it properly BUT I know you people copied it off the internet..Dont think I dont know."

What the fuck woman!!!
You dint even read the shit....Kiu basety kerty hain apni khud?:(

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I was so close to killing my neighbour's kids today....Only I know the strength (or as the kutta (zardari) would say "strent") it took for me to control myself....the were banging the door...their aunt was sitting with my mom (who was equally disgusted by their presence).....
.....
:(

:):

Im a bad friend...yeah...I dont wana go tomorrow....My work isnt complete...Semen is....well semen.
I dont wana miss anymore shit clases of IT...I already missed 2 of them....BUT Uzma...If you already missed two cant you miss just ONE more for your friend? NO bitch I dont want to. The html shit is now together with DHTML and C lang and all you smart byches who find this shit easy can go masterbate cuz Im new to this shitness and obviously not doing to well. I miss One class and Im lost for the rest of the course!! Bhench 2 chapters complete kerwadetey hain Ek class main and I already missed 4 chapters...like WTF?!!
I hATE taking permissions Im bloody 20....But then again not like Im independent and earning my own shit. And its so fucking pointless to go Im not evn gona read anything n all...I hate being a girl...actually I hate being alive....and here....and I hate everyone...and I hate existing and I FUCKING HATE MOSQUITOES BHENCHOD!!!
and there I go abusing...I disgust myself.
WHY the FUCK is eveyrone msgin me about tomoro? Like am I your fucking pair of shoes you cant your house without?
NO IM NOT GONA REPLY GO DO SOMETHING DISGUSTING TO YOURSELF BYCH!!

I did one whole shit post and I dint even mention the bloody reason of me being pisd...huh...
:|
Now I feel stupid.
I hate guilt......probably the only real thing left for me to feel...

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