Mera PC khabasat ka Dabba!!!

Days like these I could put the whole world on fire and let them all burn to ashes....every single last one them....how old - how young - dont care!!
let it buurn....just let it buurn...

[na rahay ga globe na rahay gi Global warming!! - yeah this lame though just came to my mind - Go rip your nails out!!]

There are jus too many things I hate....and I almost never get to express my hatred.
How do I do it? Like seriously? All that nonsense All day long Every single day week after week....

Fwd Mail : Have you ever seen a chameleon up close?‏
........
Do I WANT to see a chameleon up close?
FUCK YOU MUSAB and your GAY MAILS!!!

They just keep inventing new ways to piss me off...like yeah Im the center of my Universe and everything revolves around me CUZ its MY FUCKING BLOG - Go stab your retina!!
And I just dont know WHY my carelessness is so often mistaken for my shyness.....I just dont care bych...the reason I dont have an opinion about your bad taste in clothes is that I JUST DONT GIVE A SHIT...Wear - dont wear - HOW is that making a difference in my life?

And Im just SO SICK of the "Im-so-different-:(" idiots!! - [Notice the sad smiley in the end]
Lets start with the sad smiley......Mostly they're not really sad that they're different....In fact they're quite pleased with the fact...but they dont want to show it [cuz they're looking for sympathy and admiration - which they obviously wudnt get without emotionally terrifying the poor subject]...they wana give the impression that they wana be like everyone else but are just so GOD DAMN AWSOMELY DIFFERENT TO THE LEVEL NO ONE CAN REACH!!! - fuck YOU!!!

Whats with the fuss?
Everyone is "different" - We all have a different life and different experiences and different thought processes....so we're all different...Its only logical you dickheads!!
ugh...too many words wasted on the shits.

I still hate Twilight - gay gay gay gay GAY!!

And Im a hypocrite - Period!

Zardari khabees - Fact!

I wana put his mustache on fire:(
I wana poke his eyes with a fork:(
I wana punch Anum Nasir in her face:(
I wana poke her tummy (read tumm-a) with a sharp object:(
I wana tell Mrs. Kamar shes the worst teacher Ive ever had:(
I wana ...

But I cant ....Ye kaisi majboorian hain Faraz?

:(

;(

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My memory card is corrupted - Again.
I loaded it with more shit than it could take,
so it died on me....like the rest
and now Im just sitting here, waiting for a miracle to happen....

Im locked up they wont lemme out....la la la
I know rida...law...:(

So I tried to sleep everything away - Failed.

err...

Im almost never so pathetic on a saturday...I love saturdays...This just doesnt feel like it.
Now I could go hang out with my friends...dont feel like it.
Could watch tv....but dont feel like it.
I could go to sleep....but Im not that lucky.
so......yep.

Oh Memory Card;(

Oh treachery!

I thought of writing something funny but I just cant...but I tried - Failed!

Schezophrenia - lecture 4. [09:50 a.m] By Mrs. Semen Kamar.

Other researches carried out by me indicate that a thing such as "Semen" in human form can be very devestating for the enviornment and the organisms around.
My demented mind is the last place I wana be....The dark, cold, quiet place....the silence far away from peace, the shadow darker than death & the cold which burns the soul.
The sharp edges of the thoughts keeping sanity away, the high iron bars covered with pretense, the dark deep cave, no break in the fall, falling without a brawl,, all the vacuum which surrounds....

The rush of emotions never felt,
the frozen eyes that never melt;
the smell of insecurity, the purity of nothingness..

[thats MY shit - COPYRIGHTS@]

(lots os stupid songs then bla bla..)

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ThIS is how I take notes in psychology.

Im just gona post all the drafts in this post...dont have much to say...

So...Why are you sick uzma?
YEah I'll tell you why Im sick...Im sick cuz I hate you and am forced to keep up with your shit every single mother fucking day of my fucked up life and Im sick cuz I hate you and you're so unaware!! [04-07-2009]

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So ive been readin blogs.....they all so nice....all abt nice family stuff n cute petty issues like school n looks n that *signficant other*...Its so depressing.
Its not fair!! Dont deserve that all?
its jus not fair...
i dont evn have a good childhood memry....besides me n jun havin secret tea party's...and dats it. All i can think of is shit. I dont know what i did all my life...i dont remember being naughty...All i remember is deaths and after deaths and families breaking up and suicide attempts and..
[[01-26-2009]

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My lack of stimulation dissapoints me.

har kisi ko nahi milta yahaan pyaar zindagi main *tan dan tan dan TADA*

We got our literature test papers back today....now usually when I say 'I dint study' I mean that I checked out the headings, roughly went thru stuff but dint really read anything...but this time I dint even bother touching the damn book. I got 8 on 20.....MUCH more than I deserved...what are those pity marks? Ive never felt this bad. Mrs. Nadirshah is really generous this year. Even on our assigment EVERYONE got good grades....I was like WTF? Its freakin literature woman!!! We're not suposed to get marks....
Now iF I were in Ms. AMbreen's class I'd definitly get like 12 (which were the highest) cuz she understands the *depth*....but I was expecting Nadirshah to gimme like 3 for all the nonsense I wrote.....but anyway..

I HATE SEMEN....she was wearing this weird bezaar sa lip color today....it was this...tea pink sorta thing...like.....kiu?

When I get bored I jus start texting everyone.....ANYONE actually....yeah....just about anyone Rida....*sowwie*.....so this guilt trip that I experience after every say....10 minutes is....nothing new. I dont even care anymore...like whatever man...Im not a good person and I realize that SO my actions are justified.
But then again....*good-ness* doesnt really exist (This is just my theory - Facts may be different)...so yeah....theres not such thing as *good*...We just have evil....Degrees of Evil. As long Im on the left side of the scale Im one of the better one's.

Soo....yeah....not much...Jus *chillin*.....Did half my assigment....who cares rite?
I just feel like typing dunno why....Priyanka Chopra has MAN shoulders!! So does Lindsay...and that slut....and Bipasha....Only I have pretty girly shoulders....no seriously...Id look awsome if i wear an off-shoulder dress.

I suck at literature man.....and Im not being modest. I dunno shit about authors and poets...and my general knowledge too is very limited. Lite janey wali hai....but...I dunno WHY Elizabeth Bethory had to be bisexual...now I cant admire her....uhh...:\
I jus wana tyyyyypee....
Bakhuda RIDA, tumhe ho,
har jaga RIDA, tumhe ho...
<3

<3 IS OBSCENE AND SHOULD BE BANNED!!!

:\
Im a pervert....but its okay. Im a clean pervert. Everyones a perv. Yep.

"We live in perverted times my friend"
- Fb bumper sticker.

Edward Cullen is GAY - FACT!!

restlessness...

Why are pleasures always guilty? I dont just mean sexually...just in general...Cant a person feel happy without guilt? The answer is No my friends.
*sigh*
I hate to admit but sometimes (rarely) Hedonism actually makes sense to me.
umm...yeah.
So Im not expecting a comment on this post since Wijdan wont be reading it...*sadness*...Please dear reader, Do try to make up for the loss:p

Ive been feeling very special lately...getting a lot of positive feedback:\
I dont hate it....but...yeah its nice:D

Strange what desire will make foolish people do...

I have this weird habit to spoil a perfectly good situation by adding reality to it. Kills the fun and makes it stranger...:\

.....
no more shit...

***SEEMEN OF THE WEEK***

[More than half of the student were absent the other day so she gave notes and this is what happened]

S : aamp loag kisi kaam nai deJEeaga...they dint come its their loss..

Mariam : But miss what if we get absent and want work...wo bhi humain kaam nai dain gi phir..?

S : Acha....phir dedijeeaga...

feels like 6th grade to me..:\

[During a lecture on depression]

Mariam : Is depression inherited?

S : yes

Anum Nasir : YEAASS MISS IT ISS!!

rest of the class : NO Its not!!

S : yes...its not inherited..

WHAT THE hell?:(

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zara dil sai nai likha...:(

like......umm...


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yeah THIS is how expressive I AM!!