Crazy Lady in my head.

Dont get late today try te reach by ten...wake up its 9...wake up...shudve slept early last night...stupid alarm wake up its 9.20....ITS 9.20 WAKE UP...hurry up...no time to make lunch...look good...put some kohl...smudge it properly...wheres the gloss? forget the gloss...fuck the gloss man its 9.55...moms saying something nod...NOD BITCH...just forget the gloss...go go go...mom said something, respond....dont forget the money....RESPOND TO MOM...okay lets go...youre late again...perfect...say hello to the nice lady...okay boss is calling...just listen to whatever he says very carefully and dont look at the nemo sticker on his laptop...whatever you do just dont look at nemo...STOP LOOKING AT NEMO STICKER...ugh...he has that look on his face...he knows you werent listeing...say something smart...okay forget it...just follow whatevers on the paper...okay..concentrate...if we do two pages in one hour we can do ten pages....just conentrate...stop looking at the wall...no dont look at saman...Stop looking at samans lapto...

Saman: "Kia hua?"

Me: "kuch nai..."

Saman: *smile*

Me: *smile*

...just look at the wall...its one already...youve only written 17 words...okay never mind...get four pages done by three...its still possible...okay girls are talking...look at them...smile...nod...okay...theyre talking about skin and weight...okay...look interested...say something...or dont...just smile...okay...work...concentrate.........concentrate..........good........keep concentrating...............concen...oh Danish....okay take a ten minutes break...dont say anything depressing....no emo talk...no emo talk....just avoid emo...

Me: "doesnt matter"

Danish: "Why did you just win a lottery?"

Me: "No I just lost interest in life."

...ugh....say something funny...make a smiley...say funny...get away from the topic...

Me: "Im afraid if I take another sip the glass will be empty. Im talking about pepsi of course."

Okay...good...go smooth...its four...youve only done two pages....back to work...BACK TO WORK NOW...say brb...okay...concentrate....concentrate.......damn its 5.10...okay we do the rest tomorrow...hungry......hungry....walk fast....wonder whats for dinner...hope its not teenday....dont get in the elevator with him...hes stinking....hungry...hungry....okay home....check dinner...check dinner...check.....teenday...*sigh*...its okay....dont cry....its alright...we can have maggie....dont cry....stop crying...go bathe...okay eat....sleep early today...okay....lalalalala...lalalalaaaa.....stop thinking...its 12.30...go to sleep...stop thinking....stop thinking its....check the time...where's your cell.....check under the pillow...okay...its...2.30....STOP THINGKING AND GO TO SLEEP ALREADY.

And that, is my life.