No sir, no dancing today...

I know how to entertain myself and I entertain myself a lot.

yesterday when lights went out and I was just wondering what to do staring at my cell. And then all this crazy shit started going through my head. Seen prison break? Theres this scene where Michael tells Lincoln to swallow blade. So I had this weird urge to do that. But too lazy to get up and find blade [yes even in my imagination - sigh] so I edited it a bit. Ever noticed that golden thingie behind sim cards? Yea I assumed its as sharp as blade so Id take that out and make a lil ball out of it in a way it has a lil sharp edge and swallow it so it would go down cutting my throat and filling it with blood....[now I know it isnt technically possible but thats the reason I like my imagination - everythings possible - Im cool like that]...so Yeah....people would miss me soooo much....Rida is gona die of guilt for not calling me....:p
Mariam and hajira are gona cry their life away....Junaids gona turn into a rapist or a serial killer of some sort...lol....just...yeah people are gona get screwd up!


After suffering from hypersomnia for like a week Im back to insomnia. Was up till six...tossing and turning....>_>

And for some reason I ended up thinking about my father [the biological one - who died when I was three]....And I learned a LOT about myself...

Know why Im still crazy about snoopy even though they harldy have any flavours now and the ice cream isnt even half as good as it used to be 18 years back?
Cuz he used to take me there every week. Just us two. No junaid no mum. Just us. Id just point at stuff and hed buy all of it...

Know why I like Aziz Mian even though Im not at ALL a qawali person? Cuz I remeber I once saw him watching it...I dont know if he liked it or not...but I just remeber I saw him watching it once...And then hajira started crying cuz shes scared of Aziz Mian...cuz he has orange hair and is fat...so yeah...he took her out n left me in the room alone....hated hajira for that...hated him more for doing it...>_>

Know why I got all crazy about psychology all of a sudden? My phupo told me about a year back that he liked psychology. He would read books about it and he always loved observing people and their behavior...

I have his eyes. So I was just up remembering everything I could about him. And it dint make me cry. Not a single tear.
I have no idea why Im blogging about this...:\